ANOTHER TEEN ANGST SONG Locked up, in my room I turn the music up loud Can’t hear, the screams Over the sound of the blast beat And I try, to forget The pain I felt when you left And they can’t, wake me Cuz I’m the star of this tragedy Come back to me x3 I miss you I know, you can’t help me through these hard times And I know, you left To shield me from the yelling And I know, you cared For me more then they could And I know, you can’t But I want you to come back to me Come back to me x3 I miss you x4

DEAR YOUNG PERSON There is evil, in this world It will try to, drag you down But you can’t let it You have to push on We can’t get rid of, the dark Without getting rid of, the light There’s a balance, to find There is an order, to keep In a world that will not change You have to find a way to cope! Find a way to filter the noise Made those cruel girls and boys Understand what it means to be yourself Know what it means to be alive Figure out how to live your life Never forget who you are They will kick you when you’re down They will crawl under your skin They will spit in your face But you have to stay calm Filter the noise Break down the sound Filter the noise You’ll figure it out Filter the noise Life will go on Filter the noise So just carry on

IT'S ALL RIGHT You don't know who you want to be And that's alright You don't know where you wanna go That's alright You don't know what you want to learn That's alright You don't know who you want to love And that's alright You can't keep it together You can't hold down a job You can't control your emotions You can't escape from your thoughts You can't prove that you're worth it You can't face the facts You can't find their approval You can't live with what you are I'm noooootttt okaayyy And that's alright! We're not okay But we're all right

PIPELINE This thing is meant for connecting one place to another Yet this thing will split and destroy everything it touches The uproar is in your face the protest you can't escape Should be a sign for you that this is something important Stand with us hold our Hands make a pipeline For love to go from Your heart to our cause The problem isn't just the oil that Will poison the water It's also the fire that will start when You pull your trigger Lay down your weapons we are not Holding any of our own Unless our voices are weapons in That case we are well armed Stand with us hold our Hands make a pipeline For love to go from Your heart to our cause Staying silent packing up and going home we won't This is home for some and they have nowhere else to go Respect for other cultures isn't Something we should battle for It's something that we should be Living with by default Stand with us hold our Hands make a pipeline For love to go from Your heart to our cause Step back and look what you are doing are you thinking clearly If so then I believe that we have a bigger problem Forget the culture, burial grounds, And forget the water You still are hurting people just so You can move some oil Stand with us hold our Hands make a pipeline For love to go from Your heart to our cause

IF YOU LOVE ME 
I wish I didn't think so much 
I wish I hadn't pushed my luck
 I wish I didn't miss you like this
 I wish that you'd release your grip I wish you didn't take for granted 
I wish I could've said "enough"
 I wish I never planned a thing in my life 
I wish surprises didn't hurt so much Save your tears for when they really matter 
Keep your flowers in the ground 
I'm not gonna be your burden 
So I'll disappear while you sleep 
 Don't cling on to wasted silence 
Fill the gaps with dying smiles
 That haunt me when I close my eyes 
And think of you lying to me 
You said it hurt you to hurt me 
But I'm rotting and that's how you like it If you love me....let me She is gonna keep you safe
 Make you numb to the problems of the world 
And when you wonder where it all went
 You will realize you don't care Knock me down a peg or two
 Spit right on my ego's face 
Build me up from the broken rubble 
On top the bridge you're about to burn Don't cling on to wasted silence 
Fill the gaps with dying smiles
 That haunt me when I close my eyes
 And think of you lying to me 
You said it hurt you to hurt me
 But I'm rotting and that's how you like it If you love me....let me If only I was strong enough
 To tear myself from your arms
 Take a leap that has my name on i t
But you know what the result will be I wish I could still call you, friend 
I wish this didn't have to end 
I wish that our dreams could last 
I wish that you believed in that Discard your hopes for the future
 Cuz this is when my story stops 
I've been writing day and night
 Trying to leave something behind Don't cling on to wasted silence 
Fill the gaps with dying smiles
 That haunt me when I close my eyes 
And think of you lying to me 
You said it hurt you to hurt me 
But I'm rotting and that's how you like it If you love me....let me Die

I AM ME WITHOUT YOU It's harder than it looks To accept your own faults But this is not a mistake Learn to control Stop scaring your own skin Become the hope for change It hurts so much But that doesn't mean it's wrong This is who we're supposed to be Long lost but not forgetting What sent you spiraling down Holding on to you like a root Hold me in your thoughts if you get scared Hold me in your thoughts so tight I tear Remind yourself I'm always in your mind even when you don't think I'm there Hold me in your thoughts when you don't care Hold me in your thoughts when you set sail Remind yourself I'm always in your mind especially when you don't want me there The passion isn't lost Forget about reigniting sparks We'll embrace the funeral pyre Do I haunt your days Do I keep you up at night Do you feel the things I do Is this what you wanted To leave me like a child Who's scared of seeing a ghost Long lost but not forgotten Now you're quiet but loud and clear I still hear the cries of pain Hold me in your thoughts if you get scared Hold me in your thoughts so tight I tear Remind yourself I'm always in your mind even when you don't think I'm there Hold me in your thoughts when you don't care Hold me in your thoughts when you set sail Remind yourself I'm always in your mind especially when you don't want me there

SCARS OR STAINS, STAINS OR SCARS Do you still think of me And what you have done Am I a tear stain on your pillow case? Or did you wash those sheets and never look back? Do you still think of me When playing your songs Am I those scars on your hands? Or did you slice new flesh and never look back? Did (Do) you ever look back? I wish I could wash these scars away like stains But I know the fruits of your actions aren't ripe without the pains Tell me that I've freed myself from the prison of your mind Give me back the freedom to pick the poison of my choice

NICE On the border of Too far for comfort but Are you willing to try I'm myself no one else So please care about me I swear you are more than good enough As a last resort will you Please give me a shot Of a drink that I'm not used to yet Let's make a change of pace Find the style of life That will fit us so nice You make my heart go From bum bum bum To Bumbumbumbumbumbum Bum bumbum bum

HAPPY GHOST If it wasn't for you Our caps would've been bland If it wasn't for you Our music wouldn't blast It wasn't for you It was for us All that you did Even now This is home I hope you have fun Haunting the place where You last breathed life into All these young souls If it wasn't for you We wouldn't be us If it wasn't for you We wouldn't have been safe It wasn't towards you We said thanks enough But your happy ghost Is smiling at us This is home

EVER SINCE BEFORE Ever since I fell down You would catch me in your arms, and Hold me tight Let me cry And let me know that It’s alright, but Now I can’t See as well Right from wrong and Left from right, and “Now you’re gone” You say to me I’m no longer who I was Who I was Who I was before I won’t (Forget) I don’t want To see you go Out that door like The night before, and I don’t want To leave behind The past I loved when I move on “Hello dear” “Who are you” “I’m your love and I live here” Will to live Will to die Mixed emotions and they’re battling inside Ever since The petals fell Time is cruel and oh so strong Seasons change Memories fade Reminders stop and go away Your “I”s are gone My eyes are gone Too blind to see, too numb to feel Behind a wall Memorial Bike away and, you will lose it You will lose it You will lose it all Ever since Ever since Before

MUSE Ever since I could remember I found joy in making my voice sing Now I make my fingers harmonize There is no excuse to keep my Feelings bottled up now here's the Truth I never thought it'd go this far I will reach out to you and We will talk for hours or minutes But either way I will not leave words unsaid Show me the rising or setting sun Favorite place when I was young Pieces of artwork can't compare The stretch of space won't contain me When I get going pencil in hand Writing down the best that I can Thoughts overflowing in my head Everyone has something that makes them Talk when they don't know what to say And live when all they want to do is rest It's a person, thing, or place That's responsible for the letters on the page And when you pass away it's why you cry I will reach out to you and We will talk for hours or minutes But either way I will not leave words unsaid Show me the rising or setting sun Favorite place when I was young Pieces of artwork can't compare The stretch of space won't contain me When I get going pencil in hand Writing down the best that I can Thoughts overflowing in my head Recounting every word I have written Reading all the song and their meanings I was really operating on a One track mind When life's over and I can't keep going Looking up at you I am thinking The only thing I have to say is Thank you I will reach out to you and We will talk for hours or minutes But either way I will not leave words unsaid Show me the rising or setting sun Favorite place when I was young Pieces of artwork can't compare The stretch of space won't contain me When I get going pencil in hand Writing down the best that I can Thoughts overflowing in my head From. My. Muse.

SET YOU FREE
 
I feel free without shoes or socks On my feet suffocating me
 Like a jail seen through glass
 Miss my friends no room to breathe Set you free I will climb
 To the top of this hell
 Join you in a prison cell
 Stand my ground with a smile Glorified torture case 
Say I'm crazy I'd hate to be sane 
Feel the pain in their eyes 
See a monster with no disguise Call it too far call it helping 
The choice is not your's how we live
 This cage is cozy I don't mind it
 But I chose it they did not

PLEASE Please Oh please You make me so happy I hope you feel the same I know that I have a friend in you And for that I am grateful beyond belief Please Oh please Ask me for anything To fill that hole in your heart If you want I'll give you my body I'll be a friend in you if you know what I mean Please Oh please Help me forget the times When I found joy in the snow But it's not fair to put that burden on you It's my fault that my scars are open wounds Please Oh please I really want this one I don't want this one to hurt "I hope you don't hurt this one too" "That's not what I meant" "Well It's what I did" I meant that I hope you are happy

SCREAMS ECHOING ALL MY LIFE You made me feel like I should have Kept my mouth shut when I should have been Screaming loud and clear all those Things I wanted to say to you I don't admire you texting me and Making it seem like I still need you When I am trying so hard just to Be me again I, I, miss, You Thinking of what we would talk about If I were still in your picture And I'd appreciate you calling If I didn't know that it would tear me apart Nothing I say will make a difference In your life except unread messages On your phone that really put a Damper on your day I, I, I, miss Thank you for helping me remember Who I was before my flaws Consumed me and left me in A hollow state you know so well Your sweet words move me to tears Bring me back to something real I'll help you however I can Thank you so much for being my friend You offered to stay up all night And you took my breath away but I don't want you to empty my lungs I want you to help me stay alive I am freezing but this normal You want to help then if you could please Hold my hands it won't make them warmer I just really like you a lot I, I, I, I

ONE MORE NIGHT 
When I get scared 
I think of someone
 That I can never speak to again Someone I trust 
Someone who's gone 
Someone that will never ever respond I remember the face
 Of a man 
Told me it all happens for a reason As he walked away with
It in his mind 
Endless endless thoughts of suicide 
One more night to say your goodbyes
 But I only need a minute 
 Standing around 
Out on the front step 
Making an idiot of myself What was I thinking 
Why did I stay
 Why do you still talk to me today Alone at night
 Walk the streets
 See the sunrise over head Nowhere to go
 No one to be 
I can't do it anymore
 
One more night to say your goodbyes
 But I only need a minute 
 One more night to say your goodbyes 
But I can't look you all in the face


STARVATION 
I'm stocked full
 Of mistakes
 I can't say that I'm empty But I can't 
Feel any
thing that is left inside me Give it up 
Don't need it
 You'll learn it's better this way Get a grip 
I may be
 Hungry but I'm not starving 
Don't run away 
 On your own
 You'll beat this
 Cuz you were born to fight back 
No tether 
Or chaining 
Can hold down what is moving
 Too fast to 
Say "sorry
 I can not say I'm sorry" 
"It makes sense 
In my head 
But you can't see inside me"
 Don't run away Cravings to strong to ignore
 And now you're begging me for more 
I feel them too I can't deny
 I want to satisfy you 
But now I hear the whispers
 And now I see the pictures
 And now I know that they are gone
 Don't run away You can walk

TO WHO I HAVE FORGOTTEN When I sing I'm not alone My soul Will keep me company But that's not, no it's not, enough Your lies no longer fit me better than my own skin But that's not, no it's not, enough I want, you to be, Happy Without me But that's not, no it's not, enough I won't give in anymore I will take control

LET IT GO
 It hurt more than you will ever care to know
 When you said that it is time for me to go
 You said that it was always in my best interest 
But I never believed a word Swimming through the war zone inside you
 I found things you never even told me
 Shifting through the messes that I left behind 
It's easy because you kept nothing at all 
Let it go, our broken hearts 
It's time for us to live our lives 
I will come to terms with that I was no good for you Self destructive, masochistic naive girl 
Extra weight is not meant for a bird
 If on the ground she's lonely, you tell her to fly 
You can't expect her to stick around for long

WHAT DO YOU WANT Not as simple as pull over and Ask for directions, Cuz there's No map that is pre-made For your life, you gotta Make it as you go along live In the moment ask your- Self where it is that you Want to go What do you What do you breathe for What do you What do you bleed for What do you What do you live for What do you wake up for now What do you What do you breathe for What do you What do you bleed for What do you What do you live for And what do you want from me now I can't give what you need to be Satisfied, because I Don't know what you are craving For this time, how about we Flip the script you hypocrite I've tried so much, I want to Help you so badly but you Need to know What do you What do you breathe for What do you What do you bleed for What do you What do you live for What do you wake up for now What do you What do you breathe for What do you What do you bleed for What do you What do you live for And what do you want from me now I will breathe for me I will bleed for you I will live for spite I want to see this through

PLEASE DON'T BREAK I haven't made it very far from my start Oh won't you take me to the places where you got Your smile and love for nature and for art Can you teach my trying heart I dream of kissing you on top of a mountain As the sun sets slowly we better get back home So we run and we laugh holding hands so tight We cut off our blood supply Follow your heart, give it everything you've got Don't let them tear you apart For those that want you, you're more than enough To make life worth living in You can find solace in a gaze that won't break If not mine, than someone else You see me walking and you turn your head towards me Seeing us embrace is too much to behold But you smile and laugh at the thought of the fact That you miss me now and again I had a dream of a nice day with you Then the next night I dreamed I was watching from afar As you laughed and smiled claiming harmless fun But he could be the one

ANGEL I will take you home I will guide you through The night, and I will wonder where You have been all my life I am proof this is not the end Your struggles sadly have just began But I will gladly be here for you It's not a burden if I want to Always right where I'm meant to be I will come when you call my name I know just what you need from me Because I was once where you're standing now I will take you home I will guide you through The night, and I will wonder where You have been all my life You are lost in things you don't know And your sense of self is lost as well Because people shapeshift as they grow But they don't truly change who they are Like an angel with clipped wings You feel cast aside, stripped of your grace Because your ideals didn't match with his Now you're lost in darkness but not alone I will take you home I will guide you through The night, and I will wonder where You have been all my life You will take me home You will guide me through The night, and I will wonder where You have been all my life

FIGHT ME Nicknames, Wouldn't change who I am So how come, You won't accept my plan Claim that, You know what's best Oh wow, You're so full of it Respect me, Let me go through with this I beg you, Allow me happiness Oh wait, It's not your choice to make I'm in control now If you hate it well then fight me about it whoah oh, whoah oh Fight me about it whoah oh, whoah oh I won’t, Respect your rules So don't think, You've won it's not true I'm here, Standing in plain view I'm loud and, I'm proud I'm not you Not new, I've been here all along Using, The same bathroom stalls Hiding, No not anymore I am who I am If you hate me well then fight me about it Whoah oh, whoah oh Fight me about it Whoah oh, whoah oh We won’t, Respect your rules So don't think, You've won it's not true We're here, Standing in plain view We're loud and, We're proud we're not you Not new, We've been here all along Using, The same bathroom stalls Hiding, No not anymore We are who we are If you hate it oh well nothing will change that Nothing will change that Whoah oh

THERE IS NO CLOSURE AND THERE NEVER WILL BE CLOSURE I regret that I Held so tight to you That I can say that with Even my best shot Was nowhere near enough For this to feel alright For me to be content For me to believe that this Was never meant to be It makes no sense I have So much proof that we Could go on and on for days And years to come to the Conclusion that we should not Have begun to doubt what we Knew would work if we just Tried to talk but you Would not talk to me This still hurts and I know It will for as long as you Choose to run away Choose to hide your face Choose to lie, and wait For me to change my mind But when I said forever Each time I meant it It will be from afar But it will be forever

CAN WE TALK? I really want to talk to you but I don't know what to say. I feel like there are things I NEED to say but I don't know what they are. I just want to talk to, No, With you You make me happy So Can we talk?

SPITEFUL SUICIDE (I NEED SOMEONE) I'm screaming for help I've sewn my mouth shut I need you to find me My scars are a map They'll show you a path To a noose in a tree You think I'm punishing you You don't know how scared I am This is repentance for mistakes I should have never made I need someone to kill me I don't have any takers I'll make my friends my enemies By taking my own life I need someone to save me Can't you see that I'm drowning I know I've made it obvious I'm killing myself out of spite I'm not eating at all I'm burning a hole through my stomach lining I'm puking up blood It's all that's left of This mess I called a heart You think I'm punishing you You don't know how scared I am This is repentance for mistakes I should have never made I need someone to kill me I don't have any takers I'll make my friends my enemies By taking my own life I need someone to save me Can't you see that I'm drowning I know I've made it obvious I'm killing myself out of spite Out of spite Killing myself out of spite I need someone, someone, someone, someone I need someone I need someone I need someone I need someone to help me

YOU'LL HEAR FROM ME IN A MONTH…………MAYBE I'm gonna head out to where I feel like I belong It's a long walk but I think that I can do it Hopefully I won't be raped or murdered along the way If I make it to where I'm going You'll hear from me in about a month It'll be my personal freedom tour I'll sleep where no one will find me I'll wake up with my legs begging me to rest But I'm not yet where I belong I left a note saying you'll never find me Cuz you can only find what you have lost But I never belonged to anyone but myself I'm gonna head out to where I feel like I belong It's a long walk but I think I can do it Hopefully I won't be raped or murdered along the way If I make it to where I'm going You'll hear from me in about a month She'll call the cops while your all over my accounts You can't live thinking I'm never coming back But that's the plan I'm not gonna turn around I'm just too far gone

BURDEN These nights spent with thoughts rushing And strings plucked forming serenades I hope I can sing till I find A warmth inside me I think of you and I know you're not But I hope you're okay and better off With me just saying I want you to Have a reason to think You deserve to be loved You deserve to be held You deserve to be proud You deserve to be I hope I'm not a burden in your life When I say I care I truly mean it Despite what he said to you in the past Years go by our sights are changing Priorities are rearranging But remembrance of failure  Blossoms into doubt As you grow with more to give All you've got has more meaning Than what you thought was not enough To satisfy his needs You are enough to love You are enough to want You are enough to keep You are enough I hope I'm not a burden in your life When I say I care I truly mean it Despite what he said to you in the past

GUARDIAN ANGEL (SAME AS YOU) I woke up feeling uneasy not knowing if today is gonna be good The full moon was out and so was the sun with ice laying on the ground I don't know where home is but I wish you could take me there My guardian angel, can't you fly, Oh I forgot you've been clipped I'm sorry I'm the same as you I'm sorry I'm same as you My existence is a broken law don't dare look the cops in the eyes Flag flapping means something's coming maybe it's already here I could run away and I could disappear I could end it all today But I'd never know that I'd wake up tomorrow like a rainbow after a storm I'm sorry, I'm the same as you I'm sorry, I'm the same as you Icy breath and the ground stained white, But not a single feather in sight Seeing red drop from the bloody stubs I'd cry if I wasn't so numb I want to bear my cuts and I want to wear my scars with pride I will scream I'm a fighter living in fear doesn't fit me well I'm not sorry I'm the same as you We're the same I still hurt too I'm not sorry I'm the same as you We're the same I still hurt too, We're in this together

NEVER FORGOTTEN The sun 
won't rise 
If you close your eyes The wound 
won't heal
 If you don't sew it shut Change 
won't come 
If you stay still Death 
will hurt
 If you don't let life live I don't wanna lie to you
 And tell you that time heals all wounds
 I'm gonna be blunt with you 
I don't think I can make this better 
But I am gonna stay with you
 So can you do me this one favor
 Keep on breathing for me
 Look
 for help
 From those who know your pain Stand strong
 with friends
 And you can make it through No need 
to fight
 If they don't push you first Take 
away
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